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Of course I hated being blind!
It was like... not even being there...
I couldn't even see myself anymore.
That terrible accident...
Drove me insane.
To not see was torture.
Do you know how hard it is to be normal,
After a sudden tragedy
That caused me blindness

Talked about in secret
Stared at
Pitied
Steered clear of.
At least... that's what I sensed...

I had no one.
My parents weren't proud of me anymore.
I wasn't their straight 'A' child.
I was just a job
That couldn't be overlooked
A burden
That could not be lifted

I didn't want to be a burden, or a job.
I just wanted to be...
Me again...

So after that last dinner
I took the knife
Back to my room
You get the picture...

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I think they finally found
My dead carcass
Sprawled on the
Clean
White
Carpet

We never moved, I know the colour!

But...
I don't think it was white anymore...
It must have been stained
In my
Dried
Dark
Blood

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This place I was in...
It smelled like...
Fresh laundry...

This place I was in...
It felt...
Satiny soft

This place I was in...
I heard...
My own heart beating

This place I was in...
The air tasted like...
Something sweet

This place I was in...
It looked like...

Wait

It LOOKED like!?

What happened...
To me...?

I think... this is Heaven

It's so...beautiful...

Something has changed within me...
Something is not the same...

I...
I can see....

What is this?
This dream come true...
It was beautiful...
So gorgeous.

These cloud things...
They were dancing...
In the breeze
So elegantly

I was mesmerized
By them

I lost track of time

Wait...

Am I...
Dead?

Is this...
My paradise?

Will I...
Be happy?
Here?
In a paradise...

A paradise...

My pure hearted dream...